Big Time Fail

Yeah so i fail big time. i was gonna try and write on here every day or at least once a week and that didn't happen. its been over 3 months since i last was on here. (i think it was that long)
anyways a lot of things have happened since than.
im still a VIP. i'll always love Big Bang and i'll always be a fan of theirs (VIP) but i am now a Hottest (2PM) and a B2uty (BEAST).
those are the three groups i am in LOVE with in Kpop at the moment. i already put pics of Big Bang up so now i'm gonna talk about BEAST and 2PM and i'll put pics up too. so i'll start with BEAST
BEAST is a rookie group who debuted October 15, 2009. i was kind of against liking them at the beginning because i had watched the Big Bang documentary and i wasn't a fan of HyunSeung. i was thankful when he didn't make it into Big Bang. well now here was a group that he did make it into. so at the beginning i was really wary of watching anything BEAST related. well about a week after their debut, i happened across a performance of their song "Bad Girl". i instantly fell in love. i loved everything about them. even their horrible stage clothes LOL. YoSeob caught my eye at the beginning. i think it was his cute baby face or something. but then i saw him. rapper JunHyung. i love him. he is my bias. oh.....:] i melt whenever he comes on the screen. then there was leader doojoon. he is definitely my second bias. KiKwang, DongWoon, and YoSeob are all equal in my heart. and now....i even like HyunSeung. i think when i saw him in the BB doc, they were already established as a 5 member group so i kinda saw HyunSeung as the one who was in the way. the one who shouldn't be there in the first place. i dont know, its kinda hard to explain. but now i love him and his silliness and even though hes not one that im falling all over and im not crushing on him, im still happy he's in BEAST and i still love that he's in one of my fave groups.
BEAST:


JUNHUNG:


DOOJOON:


YOSEOB:


KIKWANG:


DONGWOON:


HYUNSEUNG:



now, i became a fan of 2PM at the worst time. sadly i wasn't able to know them as a group with 7 people. because there was this whole controversy in September 09 that happened when some myspace comments of the leader, Jaebum, was put out by Korean antis. so he ended up leaving Korea and basically dropping out of 2PM. im not real sure on everything that happened, since i really dont want to go back and read everything, cuz im depressed with the situation enough as it is with what little info i know. anyways sadly i wasn't able to see them perform with the Leadja Jaebum, cuz he was already gone from Korea and gone from the Kpop world. i only know them as "1:59PM" as Hottest call them. or 6PM. i like them as a group of six because thats how i came to know them, and i was against watching the variety shows that they were on with all 7 of them, and i wasn't going to watch them. but one day i was bored and so i went and searched Wild Bunny and Idol Army. and i fell in love with Jaebum. i didn't want to, but i did. he has that affect on people. and now even though i never knew them when Jaebum was in the group, i am fighting and praying and hoping that he will come back to 2PM and be the Leadja we know and love. im really nervous for February because thats when JYP/JYPE will announce if Jaebum is going to come back or if hes going to leave the group forever. i am hoping for the coming back. anyways in order that i like them. when i first saw them i liked JunSu best. his smile, his face, everything about him :]. than theres TaecYeon. his goofiness, his tallness, i even like his ears and teeth (everyone always makes fun of them but i think they're some of the best things about him :]) than i like JaeBum. his inability to get some Korean, him being leadja, his bboyness. everything. its hard to explain but i like him. than theres maknae ChanSung, JunHo, and Khun. they're all equal to me. and last but certainly not least is WooYoung. hes definitely not my favorite but he's definitely needed and i love his whining faces :D ang ang LOL
2PM:


JUNSU:



TAEC:


JAEBUM:


CHANSUNG:


JUNHO:


KHUN:


WOOYOUNG:

im sorry if i make no sense in this post. i just wrote what was in my head. it makes sense to me, but if it doesn't make sense to you im sorry. lol. anyways, im not gonna say that im gonna post so many times a month or whatever, ill just say that ill try to post whenever i get around to it or whenever i remember.

credit goes to whoever took all these pics. some of them are already tagged so credit as tagged.
im sorry i dont remember where i got them and i dont remember who to credit. i didn't take any of these so i give credit to whoever did. again sorry :]

Big Bang new MV

Big Bang....

Big Bang..... my new obsession
its kinda hard to have an obsession when they're Korean and your American of Mexican descent. but thats how it is i guess. at least the lovely Youtube has a ton of Big Bang videos that have English subtitles. if they didn't i think i would probably die. and since Korean is one of the hardest languages to learn for the average English speaking person, i dont think i'll be learning that anytime soon.
why oh why can't America have good music. i mean we have rap (i hate it and its stupid and mostly disgusting), pop (soooo not my kind of music), umm theres country (its ok. but just.....), what else... rock (like it, love it, but its starting to be blah), and so many other types of music. but no matter how many music genres there are here in the USA i cant seem to find any that i can just fall in love with... and in walks my obsession.
Big Bang.... they have the voices. they have the looks (for those who likes Asians, and i love me some Asians), they have the style, they just seem to have everything that i like. not sure what you would classify them as, but whatever the genre they're in.... i like it :)
in the order i like em:
T.O.P

TAEYANG

G DRAGON

DAESUNG

SEUNGRI (i think thats how you spell it :])

So there they are! i love em!!! i'll probably post a TON of pics from different places. if i remember where i got them from, than i'll credit them
T.O.P, Taeyang, and Seungri pics : http://www.myspace.com/bigbang_aut
Daesung pic : http://ibigbang.wordpress.com/
G Dragon pic : http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=259114&st=15800 (on that page, not sure who posted it)

Annabel Lee - Edgar Allan Poe

It was many and many a year ago,

In a kingdom by the sea,

That a maiden there lived whom you may know

By the name of Annabel Lee;

And this maiden she lived with no other thought

Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,

In this kingdom by the sea:

But we loved with a love that was more than love —

I and my Annabel Lee;

With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven

Coveted her and me.


And this was the reason that, long ago,

In this kingdom by the sea,

A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling

My beautiful Annabel Lee;

So that her highborn kinsmen came

And bore her away from me,

To shut her up in a sepulchre

In this kingdom by the sea.


The angels, not half so happy in heaven,

Went envying her and me —

Yes! — that was the reason (as all men know,

In this kingdom by the sea)

That the wind came out of the cloud by night,

Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.


But our love it was stronger by far than the love

Of those who were older than we —

Of many far wiser than we —

And neither the angels in heaven above,

Nor the demons down under the sea,

Can ever dissever my soul from the soul

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee:


For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side

Of my darling — my darling — my life and my bride,

In her sepulchre there by the sea,

In her tomb by the sounding sea

16 random things about me

1. I want to believe I don't care what people think about me, but I do

2. I want to travel the world, but lack of money and worries hold me back

3. I collect pandas

4. I sometimes feel like I would have been better off without all my "friends" from the different churches I've been to

5. I love the color black, but sometimes I get depressed just looking at it

6. I have a mother-type personality and sometimes it holds me back from doing things

7. I still sleep with a stuffed animal by my side :D

8. I could probably live off Chinese food for a very long time

9. I looove the strawberry Smirnoff things

10. I like the Jonas Brothers even though they're for like, 12 year olds

11. I heart Kevin Jonas even though I say I like Joe Jonas better

12. I sometimes wish I could be more out-going than I am, but then that thought scares me somehow

13. I wish I would've told him that I liked him, even if it turned out he didn't like me back

14. I cry for the littlest things because I cant seem to let it out for the really big stuff

15. I would love to take a photography class, or something in fashion, but I'm too scared and I worry to much to actually do it… and no amount of reasoning will make a difference.

16. I wish my faith was stronger then I tell people it is

im not much of a writer.
i can rarely keep a journal.
i've never really been able to write my thoughts down.
theres just way too much happening in my mind for me to be able to put into words. but ironically i've decided to start a blog.
dont ask me why, dont ask me if i'll even keep it up.
i might do this until i get bored or i might be so faithful to it, it kills me.
but for now we'll just say that i'll try.
i'm not sure how i'll use this.
maybe i'll just put random pictures up or maybe i'll just try and put down my thoughts.
who knows if it'll be about fashion and makeup or just about my everyday life.
whatever its about its mainly just for me.
if someone wants to read it than they're welcome to, and if no one but me ever reads this than thats perfectly fine too.
i guess for now thats all i have to say.
i'll just sign off now and i'll see you when i see you :)